A friend commented to me that "I just started" (recording the album), and well that is not entirely accurate. I actually have about 6 songs in various stages of completion. Some need refining, while others have no bass, or drums, and still others have no lyrics. I will need about 13-14 songs to fill the album.
Warning: Deep thoughts follow!
This week has been interesting to me. Like a rollercoaster, it has had its ups and downs, as well as a flood of emotions, that have really help my creativity.
After hearing from old friends and loved ones that are struggling to find their way in this life and dealing with personal issues. I comparing those to my children that really have no idea what life is about and it has really helped to trigger emotions that I am so good at keeping at bay as well as some that I have trouble dealing with. I know it is really not a healthy thing, but I am not a very emotional person, at least outwardly. Inwardly, my life is a whirlwind, and I find that song and poetry are a good way to deliver those. The older I get, the more those emotions struggle to get free, and my inner battle rages like a forest fire. But as I sit back and reflect, I am left feeling that God is working harder in my life than ever. This album is really an emotional out-pouring for me, it will contain joy and pain, weakness and strength, hope and faith, and love and loss.
As with most songs, the true meanings are a little cryptic, as to protect the intimate source, but straight forward enough to allow listeners to project there own life and experiences into it. As an example, "Every Breath You Take", by the Police is actually about a stalker, but the masses have embraced it as a love song. Sting noted that he really was impressed that people can project there own meanings into that song that completely changes the original purpose of it. This is a little of what I hope to accomplish with this journey. Many people have shaped my life, some in good ways, and others in terrible ways, but the sum of all fears is what can I do with all of that: who do I need to forgive, and who do I need forgiveness from, whom can I love, and how can I teach, and most importantly, will I accept the instruction given to me? I can be a very cynical(sp?) person, thus it is hard for a lot of people to take me seriously. Sometimes it is very difficult to let go and let someone else drive for a while, but we all get sleepy at the wheel and I am tired!
This album is for me, by me, and to me. Of course I hope others enjoy it, but I am not looking at becoming a star, and honestly, it will probably suck to most people. I don't want to live under delusions of grandure, and I really could care less if others hate it, but if there is one person that I can share with, who can use the songs to reflect in there own life, than just maybe, I will achieve my goal.
I am thankful that there are so many people who enjoy sharing in my life. I have even had comments from people that just find it amuzing, and that is great. I excel at being a little corney, and maybe that is my gift, but with corn prices being so high, I have learned that I own a very valuable commodity.
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8 comments:
Yep, needs more pictures, haha! Wow, that was a deep post, awesome! I can't wait to hear your songs, we are very into music!
Levi, I am impressed by your deep thoughs!I am still saddened that I was not mentioned in that post! But you are right with the cost of corn you are very valuable!
Yes, I didn't know you were so insightful. I, too, would like to hear the music. Who knows, maybe you will one day become famous...
More like infamous!
Yeah, a new picture!!!
I enjoyed reading this. Glad you shared (insert accent).
Reading your blog is always an interesting thing for me. I understand a lot of what you are talking about, and I am glad for you that you have found a way to let your music drive for you. I am really interested in hearing your album, I wonder how well I will be able to relate?
Hello??? haha!
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